I Dreamed A Dream

Here I am, writing a blog, about a dream i’m afraid would never come true. Sorry if my grammars incorrect, just practicing my english, lol. Wala lng, just i think sawa na sa life, puro n lng ganito, gnyan, nothing’s new. I’m stuck in this cyberhauz in almost 9 months, just here, gumagawa ng hagin sa alapaap.

But i wouldn’t care nmn, i mean, gusto q nmn cya, it’s just that sometime, i’m kinda fed up with all this (i won’t mention her/him) but she’s getting annoying from time to time. She/He has problem, she/he has to be nice nmn to everyone, karma as I call it. But anyway, forget it, just telling you what i feel right now.

I wanted to go back to school, so badly, but not now, we still got financial problems. In due time, i’m going back to school pag yumaman n kami, lol, malapit n un, just wait. I wanted the course i really really like, the course i really really wanted, which is plenty and i still can’t decide what to choose; photography, journalism, film, design, fine arts, cartooning, anything related to arts. I would never come back to being a nursing student again, i’m not for it, really. I don’t care about the dollars! To hell with it!

But I still get jealous with my former classmates and friends, the way they take it even though like me they really don’t like it. I think I may do the same kung ngpatuloy lng sana aq s pag-aaral, stuck in a course i definitely hate! But would I? Yes I would! My plan is pag nkatapos n q ng nursing, I would go abroad and mag-iipon and go back to school again.

I remember when I’m still on school, pag nag du-duty kami, my first ever patient is a nightmare! I mean not to be rude nmn, i know she’s sick kya cya ganun, but try to be considerate nmn, (siya p dapat ang maging considerate noh? kapal ng muks q tlga! lol) wala lng, just super kaba tlga q non, with the help of my friends nmn, nkaya q nmn cya.

So now, i’m gonna try hard na maiba buhay q, and my family’s life… and see me fly.

An Angel Coming Soon

Yes, indeed. Buntis nga ate ko. At first, i’m kinda on shock, kc d q nmn expected eh. Di ko nga alam kung sino yung nakabuntis sa kanya… sabi nya tga batangas dw, but i dunno, or i don’t care.

But sa una ;lng yun, syempred ko ineexpect eh, my problema kami s lupa and then here meron na naman… but then problema bang maiituturing to?… I started thinking….

No, it’s not. Definitely not. I’m kinda exited nga eh, and i’m so sure that we’re all exited. Papa q, di ko alam, but i’m so sure n oo. Syempre exited cya coz magkaka apo n cya… My younger brother, di ko alam, d nmn cya ngsasalita about it eh, but i know n alam n niya (obvious n eh). My other sister, i can see that she was very much exited. Mama q, dunno… wala cya d2 eh. But sabi nila alam n dw niya.

One thing i really don’t like (or hate) is our mga “chismosa” in our neighborhood. Jeez! 26 n ate q, d n shocking yun noh! But whatever, di naman sila nakaktulong samin eh, why waste time with them d b.

So till right now i’m so exited, sasamahan q ate n mg pa ultrasound sana. Kc my work aq, but i’m sure i will… sana baby boy, kc if girl, medyo maasikaso, but I don’t mind nmn if it’s a gir. We’ll gonna love her/him whatever he/she is, i’m prayin’ its a healthy one, sana po Lord, healthy cya. If it’s a boy, dami qng name n gusto para s kanya.. like spike, miguel, kurt, rock, etc. If girl nmn, i’m still undecided.

But i’m really hoping he/she is healthy, that’s all that matters. And I hope lumaki cya ng mabuti, matalino, at cute, hehe. I want the best for him/her. Lalo n wala siyang daddy, so I will be the daddy for him, so i’ gonna work hard for him/her. Wala aq dito pag nilabas n cya, and she/he welcomes the world, buti n rin nyo, d q ata kya n makita kapatid q n sobrang nasasaktan. But I will be with her, at times n manganganak, praying, hoping everything will be fine, and I know it will.

So i’m praying that lord will stand beside us, stand beside my sister, and my first ever pamangkin, sa mama q miles away sana magpakatatag cya. To everybody I love, hope ok kau lhat. And i’m so exited to welcome our new member of the family.